Reflection: work time
[Written a while ago, apparently failed to post. Alas has enduring relevance due to similarity to many days, including intention to make future days better.]
Today I worked for three hours, and it took nearly the entire day. I feel like this is probably a metaphysical problem beyond the reach of mundane deliberation, but on the off chance it reflects poor choices on my part, I suppose I should wonder what they are.
Some people would say the error was in the more distant past, when I decided to do this project rather than one with natural interest to me, or one that was within my areas of expertise. Seems possible, but I don’t buy it yet.
Others would say that I should own some anti-migraine medicine. Which I’ll grant. [At time of posting: now I have some! And it even works sometimes.]
But I am not sure what I should concretely have done differently today, short of having a magically different brain. Possibly one that doesn’t run on anything like motivation or ‘willpower’.
My best pragmatic improvement—were tomorrow to be similar—is to go faster to my usual ‘spend a few minutes trying to solve your immediate problems and then you can play Civ’ routine. At worst, I would have at least played more Civ.
In decisions I am pleased with, my choices to drink a vast cup of tea, to eat delicious potato chips, and [redacted] all seemed solid.
[At time of posting: Today I worked for nearly four hours! And in spite of again having a migraine, they were a pretty good good nearly four hours, and the day is not over.]